WHO AM I  ?   –  2018-84

 

I KNOW who I am, but guess one person does not know; so, this is about them and what they asked me.

I will just use “her” as a means of identification, for some people “out there” might know her, or perhaps not, but I don’t want her to get any more involved.

Who am I!? Well, she actually, said, “Who do you think you are?” This was in relation to either an email or posting I made many weeks ago, but was a pointed question to me

Anyhow, she asked me, and I stopped and thought and thought some more. My journey with God has had its ups and downs, that have been self-administered.  The road has been one of self-contemplation, self-denial, self-doubting, and basically self-everything else.

So, her question, made me stop and think. Think seriously about myself and what my journey to find God was all about. Part of this questioning evolved talking with my Pastor and stating some things that were factual, and this was after, again, a self-analysis of what my journey was all about.

What did I tell her?!  Well, it popped out after giving it good moments of this thinking.  I thought I knew why she asked so it was based on this process of thought.  It was a simple statement and gave her something to also think about, at the time.

I said:

I am NOT more than what I am.

What you see and hear is all that I am.

NOTHING MORE!  I just am.

I am NOTHING more than what I am

And What I am is EVERYTHING that I am.

 

Not earth shattering. Not a real, definitive statement. Not an explicit thought, but it is what I think of myself, and for a reason.

Something happened many years ago that changed me.  It turned me, finally, into what I call being a disciple of Jesus Christ. In fact, I recently stated this in a blog, or told someone, that I am a “poor example” of being a Christ disciple or student of Jesus Christ, but identify myself as one, anyhow.

I make NO claims of being special. I am not anything than who I was before and am now.  BUT, I have been changed.  I have allowed God to enter my life by submitting to Him and have surrendered myself to Jesus Christ.   Both actions are what I feel I have done, but, also feel that I am not doing a good job of it.  I think I will write about this shortly, if I remember.

Peace,

Den Betts            Email: bettsden@gmail.com       Blog: thebettsden.com