Cross Experience 2017-18
This past weekend gave us insight again, on how our Savior lived, died and was resurrected to give us the promise of eternal life. So be it.
One of the songs we sang at Celebration Lutheran Church, was “Where You There When They Crucified Our Lord”. That song always get to me. It is somewhat of a sad song, with much meaning.
I was meditating today and the scene of the crucifixion was imprinted on my mind. I started to remember the Scripture writings of the experience that our Lord, Jesus Christ went through.
In this respect, I WAS THERE!!!!
I could see the three crosses stuck in the holes on the hill of the Skull as it was called. I could smell the odors of the area where death was lingering, the smell of feces and urine was present from unwanted voids from the many people that had been put to death there.
I could hear the wailing of the people that were in attendance to observe the deaths of those on the crosses and of those to be yet hung. The Roman guards had a long list of those that required them to put to death. It was not a nice scene or one to be a part of at that time.
The three on the crosses were there as described. They were attached to the wooden trees with iron stakes that impaled their wrists to the horizontal beam. This helped to prevent the victim to pull loose and fall to the ground. It was not a pretty sight to see and I was emotional about it.
I was a spectator, and as such, I somewhat also had freedom to move around the area, which was strange to know and do at the time. I did so.
I went past one of the three and looked up at him. At that moment he was not moving, or making any comments. He looked ghastly and drawn and near death.
I finally arrived at the cross of Jesus Christ. I hesitated to look up at Him. I looked at one of the guards and he eyed me to see what I was going to do, if anything.
Jesus looked down at me. He focused his look right at me. He cocked His head and whispered something to me and I strained to hear. He repeated it, and I got closer to Him and heard. He said, “I know who you are”. He said the exact same thing to me when I was observing Him get baptized, by John the Baptist, which I have reported on before.
This statement startled me! It made me think of the baptism and what I saw then. I was an observer then, as I was at the cross, and it made me think of myself and my relationship with God and Jesus.
I stood with mouth open and eyes open, looking up at Jesus. Then, I saw that by looking down at me it caused the crown of thorns placed on his head to move and disturb the wound they made. A drop of blood formed on one of the thorns and I watched as it rolled down the cluster of wooden spikes in His head.
Then it dropped toward me. I watched as it sped to meet me at the bottom of the cross. I did not move. It continued falling and SPLAT, it hit me on my forehead. I backed up away from the cross. I continued backing until I came to a boulder, behind me.
I looked up at Jesus and my eyes teared and I wept. His look was one of compassion and love and His head nodded up and down.
I thought of today’s Eucharist communion practice where we hear, “This is the body, given for us, then this is the blood shed for us”. I raised my hand and touched my forehead where the drop of blood from my Savior Jesus Christ had landed.
My finger found the spot and it came away red with the liquid life of Jesus. I looked at it and then I did something that was foreign to me, I kissed my finger where the blood was smeared on the tip of my finger.
I, at that time, felt the Presence of God be a part of me. His blood that he shed, was shared with me. I knew at that moment what it was all about. He, Jesus Christ DID die for me, DID give me the opportunity to live forever in paradise with Him.
I was blessed with His presence in person before at what I called The Happening, I had experienced His presence before after I had the stupor, I in my prayerful meditation had once again had His presence be brought to me like, when He was baptized my John the Baptist in the Jordon River.
Oh, my God, my God, how can I thank you for your blessings!
Peace be with you all